Here we go... hopefully!

I am doing something that I never in a million years thought I would... I am exposing myself to the world (or who ever decided to read this) regarding my weight issues. I have not had weight issues all of my life... and to be honest I am really not sure when it started. I just started slowly gaining. I never really dealt with it because I didn't think it would continue. Well, guess what. here I am, 55 lbs more than I was in high school (and I thought I was fat back then). Four years ago at the weight of 166 I got pregnant with my son. I put on 22 lbs over the next 9 months. I was very proud of myself for that having friends that told me they had gained in the range of 50lbs! I lost some after I had him and then have been at a steady incline for a while now. I went to the doctor for my "yearly" the other day and the scale read 189. OMG 189... I wanted to throw up there on the spot. I could be carrying another child and not really knowing it. Maybe I am pregnant and ready to give birth... there are shows out there where people don't know they are pregnant. Unfortunately, the doctor had nothing "odd" to report about my exam. I went into a funk for the next few days... no one is ever suppose to be heavier than when they were 9 months pregnant... I was... and I was pissed.

I have been following a blog by a hysterically funny, honest, upfront girl named Blair at http://theheirtoblair.com/. She had her first baby in October and is wanting to loose the baby weight (needless to to say I am about 3 years behind). She has started McFatty Mondays. Basically she is putting her weightloss journey out there for all to read... therefor being held accountable by people she doesnt even know. How bold and awesome is that?

I am going to attempt this. Hopefully I will get the courage to post weekly pictures even though I hate seeing myself in pictures right now. Maybe it will help to SEE some progress.

PLUS... we started a weight loss competiting here at work. I am the ONLY female in an office of 9 guys. We started "weigh-in Wednesdays" this week. I had to put my two feet on a scale in front of 8 guys (one is not participating). Just shoot me now... 3 of the guys weigh LESS than me!!! IT'S ON NOW!!!!