McFatty

So, I got on my scale this morning... one week since I have been serious doing this diet thing. I stepped on and ahhh... 5 lbs less... couldn't believe it. Stepped back on... only down 2. uh? step on again... gained 3! effing scale is screwing with me. I got in the shower and then decided to try it again. I noticed that there was a crack in the plastic on the front side... seriously? I knew I was overweight, Mr. Scale, but that is just rude. So I tried again placing my feet in 3 different places. There was a variation of 8 lbs depending on where I put my feet. Great way to start the day. So, I will be heading out in a bit to get a new scale. Anyone have any recommendations?

I did pretty good eating this week. Saturday night was not great when we had some friends over to cook out and they brought potato casserole, pasta and pineapple parrot bay rum. I didn't exercise so that is one of my goals for this week. I guess I will have to see what I weigh on Wed. here at work.

Things I am SO done with:

- the ring my pants leave around my stomach when I take them off at night
- my belly that my 3 year old thinks is great to make jiggle.
- praying that my pants will button in the morning
- having to unbutton them half way through the day
- waking up in the morning and running my hand down my stomach hoping it has gone down.
- every moment being consumed with what I have eaten and what I am going to eat.


This week is going to be better... some of the cravings are starting to subside... I don't really mind grabbing some carrots instead of animal crackers to snack on. This has to become a way of life.

Maddie & Izzy

I suppose I should explain the title of my blog. I was blessed with two amazingly beautiful twin sisters, Madeline and Elizabeth (aka. Maddie and Izzy). These girls are 9 1/2 years younger than me and have grown to be my best friends in the entire world. They accept me for who I am and the mistakes that I have made in life... and there have been a few! For some crazy reason they say that they look up to me but in reality I look up to them and strive to be a better person for them. They have the best sense of style and personality to go with it. Somehow Maddie can pull off an outfit that I would never dream of putting together and Izzy can put on any article of clothes and it looks like it was made for her. I am dying to be skinny enough to go through their closets... and attempt their style. I want to not have anything to wear and have a multitude of clothes to pick from. I am tired of taking pictures with the two of them and being the "bigger" sister.. yes, I am older... but tired of being bigger. I can not thank them enough for their love and SUPPORT in this journey. I am going to make you girls proud... and if some of your clothes end up missing... don't look at me! I love you both!

Here we go... hopefully!

I am doing something that I never in a million years thought I would... I am exposing myself to the world (or who ever decided to read this) regarding my weight issues. I have not had weight issues all of my life... and to be honest I am really not sure when it started. I just started slowly gaining. I never really dealt with it because I didn't think it would continue. Well, guess what. here I am, 55 lbs more than I was in high school (and I thought I was fat back then). Four years ago at the weight of 166 I got pregnant with my son. I put on 22 lbs over the next 9 months. I was very proud of myself for that having friends that told me they had gained in the range of 50lbs! I lost some after I had him and then have been at a steady incline for a while now. I went to the doctor for my "yearly" the other day and the scale read 189. OMG 189... I wanted to throw up there on the spot. I could be carrying another child and not really knowing it. Maybe I am pregnant and ready to give birth... there are shows out there where people don't know they are pregnant. Unfortunately, the doctor had nothing "odd" to report about my exam. I went into a funk for the next few days... no one is ever suppose to be heavier than when they were 9 months pregnant... I was... and I was pissed.

I have been following a blog by a hysterically funny, honest, upfront girl named Blair at http://theheirtoblair.com/. She had her first baby in October and is wanting to loose the baby weight (needless to to say I am about 3 years behind). She has started McFatty Mondays. Basically she is putting her weightloss journey out there for all to read... therefor being held accountable by people she doesnt even know. How bold and awesome is that?

I am going to attempt this. Hopefully I will get the courage to post weekly pictures even though I hate seeing myself in pictures right now. Maybe it will help to SEE some progress.

PLUS... we started a weight loss competiting here at work. I am the ONLY female in an office of 9 guys. We started "weigh-in Wednesdays" this week. I had to put my two feet on a scale in front of 8 guys (one is not participating). Just shoot me now... 3 of the guys weigh LESS than me!!! IT'S ON NOW!!!!